Happy Birthday Vanessa! You're 16!
A beautiful person inside and out. I've known you since form 3. Sounds short but it feels like a lifetime ^^
The rest of what i would say to you is already in the birthday card i gave you and that's between us *wink* Hehe
love from your best friend,
Janice <3
Saturday, February 28, 2009
Friday, February 27, 2009
Pictures
Ok, as i promised, i would post pictures from Vanessa's sweet 16 ^^
Everyone there..
One of the singing performances. B'day girl is the one with the pink dress xP
Sing Haw's Jabbawockeez performance. It was AWESOME! =D
Me, Kevin and Ervin
Me, Ervin and Justina with our masks on
Me and Vin
I would like to apologise in advance for not having pool pics. Save your eyes from burning. Hehe ^^
Ps. Sorry so few pics. I'm just lazy to post so many xD
That is all,
Xoxo,
JaNz
Everyone there..
One of the singing performances. B'day girl is the one with the pink dress xP
Sing Haw's Jabbawockeez performance. It was AWESOME! =D
Me, Kevin and Ervin
Me, Ervin and Justina with our masks on
Me and Vin
I would like to apologise in advance for not having pool pics. Save your eyes from burning. Hehe ^^
Ps. Sorry so few pics. I'm just lazy to post so many xD
That is all,
Xoxo,
JaNz
Monday, February 23, 2009
Birthday Greetings
Happy Advanced 16th Birthday to Vanessa,bestie! Nice dresses! RAWR! HAHah
Thnx for the awesome party! THe performances rocked and yes your singing is incredibly awesome too!
Met awesome people there. People i don't meet often. Like Rabi, Jaymee ( first time, cool person btw ), Justina, Merc, Edward ( Van's uncle ), Kevin Siaw, Sii Ya, Jenn Tang, etc...Many people lah!
The night was beyond words itself. My fav was Sing Haw's dance. Like Jabbawockeez performance! There were several games too. Finally! Boogie on the dance floor! God! I was so high! HAHhahaha..XD
Just dance like nobody's business! Yea! Mostly dance with Cass, van and others. Later, nat and me dragged Ervin to dance. Then, She pushed me to him! Grrr! So sad, i cant hurt her T.T Am i too nice for my own good? *Sigh*
Then, got slow dance. To the cute couple ( you guys know who you are *wink* ): *Ahem* HAHhaa...xD And to the others : Wahh...so loving orh Xp
Swimming at night was fun. The boys so high, go do flips and other guy stuff 0.0 Few people didnt sleep again. I slept at 3 30am+ then wake up at 5 30am+. AHahha....so hyper..cannot go back sleep.
Then morning, swim again. What fun with random people. Lets see, got Rabi, cassandra, Jaymee, Merc, Van and me i guess. Finally i had to go, of course pictures were taken before leaving.
Ps. Thnx for being so nice and always accompany me Rabi =)
So, off to qeel's bday! =)
Happy Belated 15th Birthday Qeelah! Awesome time at the Mall! Pink Pnther 2 was funny! Somehow it felt short. Then, go shopping for Caroline's shoes. Lastly, go get Snow Ice. Yum!
I'll try to show pics when i get them.
Xoxo,
JaNz
Thnx for the awesome party! THe performances rocked and yes your singing is incredibly awesome too!
Met awesome people there. People i don't meet often. Like Rabi, Jaymee ( first time, cool person btw ), Justina, Merc, Edward ( Van's uncle ), Kevin Siaw, Sii Ya, Jenn Tang, etc...Many people lah!
The night was beyond words itself. My fav was Sing Haw's dance. Like Jabbawockeez performance! There were several games too. Finally! Boogie on the dance floor! God! I was so high! HAHhahaha..XD
Just dance like nobody's business! Yea! Mostly dance with Cass, van and others. Later, nat and me dragged Ervin to dance. Then, She pushed me to him! Grrr! So sad, i cant hurt her T.T Am i too nice for my own good? *Sigh*
Then, got slow dance. To the cute couple ( you guys know who you are *wink* ): *Ahem* HAHhaa...xD And to the others : Wahh...so loving orh Xp
Swimming at night was fun. The boys so high, go do flips and other guy stuff 0.0 Few people didnt sleep again. I slept at 3 30am+ then wake up at 5 30am+. AHahha....so hyper..cannot go back sleep.
Then morning, swim again. What fun with random people. Lets see, got Rabi, cassandra, Jaymee, Merc, Van and me i guess. Finally i had to go, of course pictures were taken before leaving.
Ps. Thnx for being so nice and always accompany me Rabi =)
So, off to qeel's bday! =)
Happy Belated 15th Birthday Qeelah! Awesome time at the Mall! Pink Pnther 2 was funny! Somehow it felt short. Then, go shopping for Caroline's shoes. Lastly, go get Snow Ice. Yum!
I'll try to show pics when i get them.
Xoxo,
JaNz
Wednesday, February 18, 2009
Short poems
A friend
If you're alone,
I'll be your shadow.
If you want to cry,
I'll be your shoulder.
If you want a hug,
I'll be your pillow.
If you need to be happy,
I'll be your smile.
But anytime you need a friend,
I'll just be me.
By your side
Do not walk behind me,
For i may not lead.
Do not walk in front of me,
For i may not follow.
But-
Walk beside me,
and be my friend.
If you're alone,
I'll be your shadow.
If you want to cry,
I'll be your shoulder.
If you want a hug,
I'll be your pillow.
If you need to be happy,
I'll be your smile.
But anytime you need a friend,
I'll just be me.
By your side
Do not walk behind me,
For i may not lead.
Do not walk in front of me,
For i may not follow.
But-
Walk beside me,
and be my friend.
Monday, February 9, 2009
Part 2
Okay, first of all..my sanity is still intact.
Miraculously...
So, it was quite an eventful day today. Quite? Wait! Who am i kidding!? It was more like a trip to hell! No, scratch that again. I'm already living in it! It's called COLLEGE!
Clayton College is a prestigious school for well-deserving, well-behaved and high-achieving students. God! That sentence just wants to make me hurl. In fact, my stomach is churning already! I mean seriously, prestigious!? well-behaved!? high-achieving!? I mean, Anne Kelly ( a juniour ) has slept with god-knows-how-many seniours and *cough* freshman. I could tell you more bout the others in the school but why shouldn't i give you the benefit of the doubt?
I went to my usual seat in the cafeteria with my friends ( hello, hi friends ) . I didn't dare to sit with Catherine or Ashley in fear of an outbreak of another battle between the Huns and China like in Mulan.
After lunch, I tried to get out of the cafeteria like a silhoutte, hoping A and C wouldn't notice; although for some eerie reason, i could feel the presence of their eyes looking through my soul. Creepy.
I managed to make it to class on time tho i was caught running in the halls. Luckily A is in another class. I sat next to J, Joshua. I had no choice. Teachers seat you up with your lab partners. He's this decent looking guy who has some issues that noone understands. I don't really bother.
After class, i tried to rush out again. J was ( surprisingly )at the door already..with a sickeningly sweet grin. I tried passing him but he blocked the entrance. He whispered asking me to meet him out back after school in a secluded spot. More like a request actually.
Questions ran through my mind like crazy. I even felt the urge to kill my thoughts. After school, i finally saw him, alone, under a tree, prefectly shaded by the shadows of the leaves in every angle.
Wondering whether i should walk forward or go back, i stood there, like an idiot.
Miraculously...
So, it was quite an eventful day today. Quite? Wait! Who am i kidding!? It was more like a trip to hell! No, scratch that again. I'm already living in it! It's called COLLEGE!
Clayton College is a prestigious school for well-deserving, well-behaved and high-achieving students. God! That sentence just wants to make me hurl. In fact, my stomach is churning already! I mean seriously, prestigious!? well-behaved!? high-achieving!? I mean, Anne Kelly ( a juniour ) has slept with god-knows-how-many seniours and *cough* freshman. I could tell you more bout the others in the school but why shouldn't i give you the benefit of the doubt?
I went to my usual seat in the cafeteria with my friends ( hello, hi friends ) . I didn't dare to sit with Catherine or Ashley in fear of an outbreak of another battle between the Huns and China like in Mulan.
After lunch, I tried to get out of the cafeteria like a silhoutte, hoping A and C wouldn't notice; although for some eerie reason, i could feel the presence of their eyes looking through my soul. Creepy.
I managed to make it to class on time tho i was caught running in the halls. Luckily A is in another class. I sat next to J, Joshua. I had no choice. Teachers seat you up with your lab partners. He's this decent looking guy who has some issues that noone understands. I don't really bother.
After class, i tried to rush out again. J was ( surprisingly )at the door already..with a sickeningly sweet grin. I tried passing him but he blocked the entrance. He whispered asking me to meet him out back after school in a secluded spot. More like a request actually.
Questions ran through my mind like crazy. I even felt the urge to kill my thoughts. After school, i finally saw him, alone, under a tree, prefectly shaded by the shadows of the leaves in every angle.
Wondering whether i should walk forward or go back, i stood there, like an idiot.
Sunday, February 8, 2009
Part 1
In every high school, there's a clique. Usually. You know those groups of completely different people? Well, i'm not in any of them because i don't want to be named "the villain" like in one of those old high school stories.
I am a teenager with a lot of morals. So i'm pretty much liked by everyone. Like everyone's best friend. I'm supposed to be the perfect friend too. Someone who's willing to be with that person through everything.
However, it has finally come to that time when i start to feel like a hypocrite. I always say to my best pal, Ashley that i will always love her, but now, when i think about it, a feeling of guilt seems to swim right inside me. The reason why is probably because i didn't mean what i said.
Judge me if you will but personally, I don't give a crap. There's another problem. I know my life sounds screwed up but bear me if you will. I have another best friend, Catherine whose character is the total opposite of Ashley's. Oh yeah! There's another thing, they can't stand each others guts! That's why i'm caught in the middle.
I picked Catherine's side over Ashley's but Ashley doesn't know that. Catherine also doesn't know that i still talk to Ashley.
So...you see my problem, don't you? Well, i hope you do because i really need help! In this case, i feel like the villain and i abhore it. I just wish things could go back to how it was back then. CAT would live again! Not CAT as in cat but as in Catherine, Ashley and Tanya.
Yes! Tanya is my name. I'm supposed to love it and all but my dad named me after one of his ex-lovers who was his first. That is so weird, right? If you say "That's so cool!" , then you seriously need a complete overhaul on your brain =.=
I am a teenager with a lot of morals. So i'm pretty much liked by everyone. Like everyone's best friend. I'm supposed to be the perfect friend too. Someone who's willing to be with that person through everything.
However, it has finally come to that time when i start to feel like a hypocrite. I always say to my best pal, Ashley that i will always love her, but now, when i think about it, a feeling of guilt seems to swim right inside me. The reason why is probably because i didn't mean what i said.
Judge me if you will but personally, I don't give a crap. There's another problem. I know my life sounds screwed up but bear me if you will. I have another best friend, Catherine whose character is the total opposite of Ashley's. Oh yeah! There's another thing, they can't stand each others guts! That's why i'm caught in the middle.
I picked Catherine's side over Ashley's but Ashley doesn't know that. Catherine also doesn't know that i still talk to Ashley.
So...you see my problem, don't you? Well, i hope you do because i really need help! In this case, i feel like the villain and i abhore it. I just wish things could go back to how it was back then. CAT would live again! Not CAT as in cat but as in Catherine, Ashley and Tanya.
Yes! Tanya is my name. I'm supposed to love it and all but my dad named me after one of his ex-lovers who was his first. That is so weird, right? If you say "That's so cool!" , then you seriously need a complete overhaul on your brain =.=
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
Travelling
Pondering through the forbidden roads,
I'm trapped.
There's nowhere to go.
But wait!
Maybe there is!
I see you out of everything that was grim and dark,
Like a shining star that will never burn out,
Is it really you i wonder...
Roads diverge,
My mind is puzzled,
Which is right or wrong?
You can tell me, right?
After all, you're still the same in my eyes.
You never change.
I feel like a fool for falling for you.
It was inevitable.
Yet,
I don't regret it a single bit.
It was long awaited admiration turned sour.
*You're an amazing person. Don't forget it. I'll try to move on as best as i can. I only hope for the best for you. I truly do =)
I'm trapped.
There's nowhere to go.
But wait!
Maybe there is!
I see you out of everything that was grim and dark,
Like a shining star that will never burn out,
Is it really you i wonder...
Roads diverge,
My mind is puzzled,
Which is right or wrong?
You can tell me, right?
After all, you're still the same in my eyes.
You never change.
I feel like a fool for falling for you.
It was inevitable.
Yet,
I don't regret it a single bit.
It was long awaited admiration turned sour.
*You're an amazing person. Don't forget it. I'll try to move on as best as i can. I only hope for the best for you. I truly do =)
I gave my all
A probably crappy poem i wrote on 3rd feb morning when i reached school at 6:30pm.
Have you ever asked or thought-
What did she have that i did not, or ;
What did i lack?
Perfect? Or a lie?
Your words always fogged up my mind-
Always crossing my mind;
with scattered thoughts.
You made my hopes so high repeatedly,
In just a few, they were crushed.
Your words still linger in my head,
Everlasting,
Ever going.
A best friend?
It would pain me so much more than you realise.
The first to cause me such heartache,
100 beatings would never do, but-
Your few words caused a 100 slashes on my dear heart.
"Right now..I only like you as a best friend, not relationship wise"
Yet, you say the answer is definite.
Yet, you also give pitiful hope at the same time,
Why must you confuse me so?
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"forever are forever will"
I gave you a year. Would even give you a lifetime yet you came up with an answer overnight.
I guess i really wasn't good enough. I never was. Never will be.
I slept a sleepless night, with tears trickling down the ever prolonging road ( my cheeks ), with nothing but a wet pillow and a shattered <3
Ok, i sound pretty much pathetic so i'll stop.
Xoxo,
JaNz
Have you ever asked or thought-
What did she have that i did not, or ;
What did i lack?
Perfect? Or a lie?
Your words always fogged up my mind-
Always crossing my mind;
with scattered thoughts.
You made my hopes so high repeatedly,
In just a few, they were crushed.
Your words still linger in my head,
Everlasting,
Ever going.
A best friend?
It would pain me so much more than you realise.
The first to cause me such heartache,
100 beatings would never do, but-
Your few words caused a 100 slashes on my dear heart.
"Right now..I only like you as a best friend, not relationship wise"
Yet, you say the answer is definite.
Yet, you also give pitiful hope at the same time,
Why must you confuse me so?
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"forever are forever will"
I gave you a year. Would even give you a lifetime yet you came up with an answer overnight.
I guess i really wasn't good enough. I never was. Never will be.
I slept a sleepless night, with tears trickling down the ever prolonging road ( my cheeks ), with nothing but a wet pillow and a shattered <3
Ok, i sound pretty much pathetic so i'll stop.
Xoxo,
JaNz
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